Ok, so I totally did not prepare myself for this topic.
If I was asked while I was pregnant if I was going to nurse my baby, the question was a no brainer...
"Of Course!"
I knew it was the healthy route, the cheapest route (hello students)
and lets be honest, the route that burned 500 calories a day ha so I jumped on board "in my mind."
Little did I know what was to come.
I knew it was the healthy route, the cheapest route (hello students)
and lets be honest, the route that burned 500 calories a day ha so I jumped on board "in my mind."
Little did I know what was to come.
**Now I realize every body is different and this may be a sensitive topic.
I know my mom nursed each child to a different stage depending on her body and the baby.
Some moms don't produce enough milk and some moms are not able to breastfeed for other various reasons.
But I believe whatever you decide to do is best for you and your baby.**
I however, produced enough milk to feed an army.
(you think I'm kidding)
(you think I'm kidding)
I think breastfeeding is probably the best kept secret of pain.
Yes you prepare for the birth, the nursery, all the fun baby accessories but did anyone prepare you for nursing??
I remember that first week after he was born.
I was engorged and in tears night after night.
My poor husband had no idea what was going on. ha
I had no idea it would hurt like that! WHO KNEW!?
My poor husband had no idea what was going on. ha
I had no idea it would hurt like that! WHO KNEW!?
All of the sudden I found myself not wanting to do it and thinking,
"A bottle of formula would be so much easier".
"A bottle of formula would be so much easier".
Luckily my mom was staying with us for the week and she kept saying it would be worth it.
And let me tell you.
*It was.
After 1 year and 3 weeks of nursing, we decided to pull the plug tonight.:(
Ok, so I totally felt like a cow sometimes. (okay scratch that, a lot of the time)
I remember calling my mom in tears (I think lots of tears were shed over nursing haha) and saying,
"Mom all I do is feed him! Is this my only purpose in life!?" hahaha
But looking back it was some of the sweetest and most tender experiences of my life.
I am so attached to that little boy.
and I think his daddy would tell you he is all "Mamma's boy". (maybe too attached?)
No way did I ever think he OR I would make it a year,
but now that we have, I'm pretty emotional it's over!
He is officially out of the baby stage.
Even though he will always be "my baby."
So yes, breastfeeding is hard.
Really hard.
It's no fun sometimes, and sometimes it makes you want to go crazy in those early stages,
when your baby wont latch, or has a hard time catching on to it.
Really hard.
It's no fun sometimes, and sometimes it makes you want to go crazy in those early stages,
when your baby wont latch, or has a hard time catching on to it.
But if you are ABLE to, stick with it.
It is so worth it.
I wouldn't trade those nights for anything.
I will miss him eating and stopping, then looking up at me and smiling, and then back to eating.
My heart melted every single time.
(I have been down to only feeding him 2 times a day ((morning and night)) and weening slowly 5 minutes to 4 to 3 to 2 etc..)
Tonight he looked up at me when he was done and said "Mommy" and smiled.
It was just the cherry on top.:)
I'm so lucky to be your mommy.
(I have been down to only feeding him 2 times a day ((morning and night)) and weening slowly 5 minutes to 4 to 3 to 2 etc..)
Tonight he looked up at me when he was done and said "Mommy" and smiled.
It was just the cherry on top.:)
I'm so lucky to be your mommy.
Thanks for sticking with it with me little one!
